slacking

That is what I have been really good at these past few months. I have let everything go, the house, the blog, myself, real estate, scrapbooking, school. I have gotten a new job waiting on table at Longhorn and I have to say I really enjoy it. Now if I could just find the motivation to get back to school to finish up my 60 hours that would be nice. I have been sleeping sooooo much lately and I like to attribute it to stress more than laziness.

I have still been taking my meds regularly but with working such off hours the side effects are still in full swing; sleeplessness, sleepiness, dizziness. But I am not giving up.

Lately I have finally come to some big decisions about my life and myself. I don't like where I am at right now and it is my own fault. I have decided to make some big changes and although they will be gradual, they are a must. It may hurt some people along the way or change how they think of me but I can't not do it for them. It will make me a better Mommy, a better person and that is what matters. It isn't anything crazy drastic, just how I handle things, how our future is going to play out, our finances, our priorities, etc. It is time to do some mental house cleaning for the entire family.