Saturday, February 04, 2006

This isn't me, really I swear

I am a positive, up beat person. I believe the glass is half full, really I do. So why on earth do I feel so crappy? I just don't want to do anything. I want to hide in a shell and never come out. Ethan is the only reason I have to even open my eyes and sometimes that is just so hard to do. I hate being pathetic and feeling miserable.
AT WHAT POINT DO I GET MYSELF BACK?
AT WHAT POINT DO I GET TO BE THE PERSON I USED TO BE?
AT WHAT POINT DOES THIS CRAPPY HELPLESS FEELING GO AWAY?
AT WHAT POINT DO I GET TO BE AMY THE MOMMY NOT THIS FOREIGN PERSON BEING A MOMMY?
AT WHAT POINT DO I GET TO BE AMY?